i get soo damn confused! why cant i let him love me? why cant i let my self love him? i should have to try this hard to like him! fuck... i am a horrible person for what i have to do to him... i am i dont think it;s right.. i feel horrible for doing it.. i do... he dont deserve it.. but it's not fair to be with him when i am second guessing our entire relationship... i dont get me... to repeat from my last post... why can i just be happy?!

i bought christina's stripped cd today... thats when you know i'm in a depressed mood... she is blaring from my speakers... she is amazing and i heart her...

bleh..