Dresden dolls and Decisions

i have made a decision on college... i am going to UNC i sent in my housing app tonight...

my parents want me to take a year to figure my life out before i go to NYC... they want me to take a year and not be gay anymore...

that is where i get confused... i love emily... i do... but why do i then have these attractions to men? god i mean ohhh i'm bi!!! what a cop-out...

she is dating my best friend... they are in love...
it hurts everytime i see them touch...

Yes, Virginia... has been one of the only things i can use to get away. i listen to this record and i just get soo into the music there is nothing i can do but love the way it makes me feel. it makes me feel alive... maybe it's because it makes me think of what i want to do with theatre... and how i want to write a musical on their music... the dresden dolls are the only band that has actually helped me through something... i can relate to their music and they are my saving grace in a way...


this is my first post... i dont want to tell ppl i have this site... i just want to be able to go to it and diary... if ppl come across it they do... if not they dont and i can have my own diary...

i want to be away from this... i want to be away from longmont...


i want to be in NYC